The Whisper of Insecurity

I am 45 years old, a wife of 25 years, a Mom 22 years this month.  I have held a job since I was 16.  I have taught, kids church, youth group, and adult Sunday school.  I have stood in front of groups big and small and taught many a Bible lesson.  Why, may I ask, am I terrified of the video camera?

My plan and I believe God’s plan for this little blog, is to write and speak about women of the Bible. The writing part is easy and I assumed the video part would be as well. Not so!

As I begin to shoot the video clips about the Woman of Samaria, insecurity came along and tore at my mind and my heart. “Look at your hair, your skin, your round face,” She whispered. “Listen to your voice. What could you possibly have to say that will help or encourage anyone?” Who do you think you are?  You are a fool and this is a waste of time.” She hissed.

What words can this broken vessel have to say?  then the relief came – WORDS… 

Not my words – The Words of God.   Not my ideas – But His ideas    Not my story – but His stories.

I will resist those whispers of insecurity, I will loose those chains that bind me in many ways and I will pray these words over myself ~  that whenever I speak, words may be given me so that I will fearlessly make known the mystery of the gospel,  for which I am an ambassador in chains. Pray that I may declare it fearlessly, as I should.  Ephesians 6:19-20

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